Recently in my life I have entered into a phase that I have made a decision to fully explore and delve into myself and really take a look at the things I need to change in order to become the best version of myself that I can become. It has been an amazing journey thus far, some incredible discoveries and insights into who I was and what I am becoming. As life always does, some challenges have been presented to me that have propelled me even deeper into this self discovery. Exploring my thoughts and feelings and the present reality .

Well you know that old saying there are no coincidences there are only  “God Instances” . Well as I read Chapter 3 of Matter into Feeling by Fred Allen Wolf. The Wave of Feeling. I literally felt a wave of emotion come over me . First it was a wave of excitement of realizing after reading this chapter for the second time I actually understood what he was saying.  The first time I read it I  thought “Oh my God I have no idea what he is saying”  as it is really very profound and deep of how he goes into the alchemy of feelings and how we transform them for one state to another . But the second read, I  first prepared and resolved to myself that I can understand this and it was profound.

In this chapter He correlates the feelings with the elements of Fire, Earth, Water and Air  as the ‘ Out there ” and the ” In Here” becomes Thought, Sensation, Feeling and Intuition. The wave of emotion that came over me was the realization of this connection that I had never even imagined to consider. This took on a whole different perspective for me in looking at who I am as an individual in this body experiencing all of these emotions and what is really happening. It is true alchemy of what he describes to us in this chapter. As a result of this for me it has been an opening of a door where I now have begun to view and observe my feelings from this paradigm and I feel like I have embarked on a deeper journey into myself.

One of the definitions of alchemy in the dictionary is the ” process of transformation, creation or combination….. The medieval forerunner of chemistry based on the supposed transformation of matter. Think about this for a moment. Our feelings are much more than just this basic concept . If you allow yourself to expand your awareness you will realize this opens a doorway to work with your feelings that you have never imagined before . It did for me.

Maria A. Jacques